April 27th! Yikes! In addition to what I've read about the situation in Europe, I have some friends in Germany. They say things are pretty bad there, too. Spikes in Covid numbers, the the painfully slow roll out of vaccines, & the world famous German bureaucracy all mean they're feeling the pain, too. I hope things improve by the time your birthday rolls around. The "zero birthdays" are biggies, so it would be nice if you & your husband could do something special to celebrate.

@Miguel'smom...Whether you have BPD, or not, DBT (dialectical behavioral therapy) is a useful tool to have in your toolbox. Drugs aren't useful in treating BPD, so DBT is the primary treatment. DBT is my therapist's "specialty," so I've learned to utilize mindfulness skills to manage everyday "life stuff." Starting anew with a therapist is never easy, but it is done all the time. I'm sure things will go well once you have a few sessions under your belt. Hang in there.

Another day of irritability for me. I'm not sure why, though. I'm so blessed in many ways, but it's not a problem for me to find something to complain about lately. I get very frustrated with myself when I'm like this...which just fuels the fire. It seems to be a circular pattern. I hope recognizing that will end the cycle soon.