I hear what you say and you say it beautifully. I have rarely broken the law and I have never been caught the few times I mildly broke the law. However, though my life is well enough, I feel you. Doors close as I get older, though the doors have a different height for you. I understand you get annoyed when people such as I say things such as I did. Getting a job and making an effort is frustrating if you've met the same dead end multiple times. But continue we must, for the alternative is so much more final than trying again and again and again to find some sort of fullfilment or at least contentment.

I neither have an aswer. I don't understand why you and I exist at all. I do wish both of us good luck anyways on that path to nowhere.