What a ****ing mess I’m in. We are waiting to hear back on our offer on the house. I had my Pdoc appointment. He’s raising my Xanax to 3 times a day. Whatever. But he told me the office is going back to in person sessions in 2 weeks. This just absolutely kills me. I’m not moving until the middle of may. I could have had several in person therapy sessions with my old T.

I am just downright devastated right now. I’ve been curled up in a ball on the recliner since my appointment ended.

But I’m also like “ok” and part of me doesn’t care and the going back and forth on these things is so emotional for me. I constantly change my mind about how I feel about everything I do. I don’t know if it’s an OCD thing or what but it’s so draining.