Things are quite a bit better today. Physical issue is better and I think I have a better handle on it now. The weather is really nice, maybe too warm for March/April, but that's going to be the deal. Went to the library to get a new card. That's about the first time I've been inside of a business since this all started. And the one I missed the most, but you know, anxiety. Didn't freak out and it went off without a problem.

Still feeling overwhelmed about the future but fortunately and unfortunately that's all on me. Fortunate, because I can't screw anyone else's life up but my own. Unfortunate, because I have little help and support for sorting it out. Feels hopeless. But, as a society we tend to tell people to pull up themselves up by their bootstraps and that's all I'm going to get for help. I'm hoping that with vaccines being more widely available and states starting to roll back restrictions, that the economy will pick up. Still feels like my "time" is passed and I should just lie down in a hole and die. Too young for that, but too old to do too many things to help myself. At least I'm at the bottom of the happiness U curve, so it should all be up from here.