My POV is that it takes a lot of strength to see our weaknesses and ask for help with them. That you were asked back to your old job shows that you have many strengths too! I feel like my breakdown made me stronger but I am also able to work part time which gives me time for self care. When I did have full time jobs, having good a good supervisor made a huge difference when the company culture wasn't the greatest. I hope you find that the work environment has improved (I saw where you said somewhere that two employees that were bringing that company down were fired. ) I will continue to pray for your recovery--you have had many, many challenges but you can put them behind you--it just takes time.