I am returning to this thread.

Recently I was hospitalized for the dark evil voices I've heard.

I was channeling a LOT just before I had to be hospitalized and just before the voices escalated to a very scary and unmanageable level.

The police came to my house because the psych nurse called them as soon as I told her I was hearing the most evil kind of voices.

I've since come out of the hospital (after ten days of treatment), I am on increased and additional medications to help calm them, but the meds do not solve it nor do they really calm what is happening to me.

I had an exorcism by a priest who came to my home last weekend.

As he was praying over me, my body moved and jerked and growling sounds came out of me. My husband said my eyes rolled to the back of my head as the sounds came out of me. My husband has previously witnessed hissing sounds come out of my body when he held a crucifix to my head.

After the exorcism, I felt far better for about a full day before the energies and voices returned. For that one day, I did not experience voices or any bodily movements.

Since the weekend, I have (once again) had different voices speaking through my body, and I know they are not my own voice. I have to cast them out using rosary beads with a cross that the priest gave me, and with holy oil and holy water that the priest also gave me.

He told me at the time that my problem is both a spiritual one and a psychological one.

While in the hospital, I was NOT diagnosed as schizophrenic. The psych nurse had no real diagnosis for me, and put down bipolar disorder to simply give me any kind of diagnosis because she had to. She even said I do not fit either diagnosis.

So my father is trying to find me a psychiatrist who can properly diagnose me.

When I was hospitalized the last time, seven years ago, they diagnosed the dark voices and possession I experienced as "psychosis". This time, it felt exactly the same.

In my experience, it feels mostly spiritual and partially psychological. The bodily jerks and the hissing and growling sounds tell me this is mostly spiritual.

Of course no one here can diagnose, and that's not what I am seeking from this post.

I am scared - very scared. I am worried about my well being and about my ability to function.

I am NOT channeling anymore. That is DONE. After what I've experienced, I've determined that it opened a door to a world I don't want to know about OR experience ever again.

I had thought though that I was talking also to benevolent beings, for most of the time I was channeling. However, channeling clearly is a very dangerous activity that should NOT be taken lightly.

I made a vast mistake by venturing in this direction to begin with. VAST MISTAKE. Now I don't know how to close the door completely to get rid of them.

WHY did this even have to happen? I thought initially that it was a gift that I should use to help people. There are channels and mediums who channel higher beings.

But for me, channeling creates all sorts of trouble and it's not worth it.