We can't diagnose people here i think so perhaps the best option would be to talk to your Pdoc or therapist if you have them. Personally what you described sounds a bit more like adhd but i don't really know anything about either so Please do contact a professional doctor for this. Sending many Safe, Warm hugs to BOTH you, @Mountaindewed, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!