I am ashamed to admit my fragilities because i'm paralyzed and can't face my normal everyday duities and feel very childish since this has been going on for years
She met me in 2017, I was and still am unemployed cause I had a big crisis
She was pregnant back then and couldn't see her during 2018 but she is not to blame for anything, I was in a really messed up phase of my life anyways, it started many more years ago

Sorry for using this topic