Does it get better?

I feel like I can't hold onto my relationship with L if I'm not with her. The longer she's away, the harder it is for me to hold her in mind. And I have a ton of stuff to help! I have emails, voicemails, a scrapbook, transitional objects, etc. I am able to retain some memories and feelings, but they start feeling like lies. Like I can't trust my experiences. After 2-3 sessions back, I'm able to reestablish our bond. But it's so frustrating. And painful. The disconnect sucks!

Any advice on how to get better at object constancy? How to maintain the "with-ness" feelings?