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eskielover · Mar 30, 2021, 05:09 PM

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Originally Posted by RoxanneToto

Thanks, eskielover! I did have my phone and a personal alarm in my pocket, I think I just felt really scared going over there and back so maybe that’s a big part of why I questioned myself afterwards. My T said it was good that I’d challenged myself, when we spoke last week, too.

I think you are right about the fear being a big part of it. When I make a decision to do something I find I have wise caution when doing it but not fear. Probably because my wise caution has helped me avoid things that would reinforce any feeling of fear in the first place. Though I am sure others would feel fear. I can recall 2 times in my life dealing real fear. One was when I took the tram to the top of a black diamond ski slope in Jackson Hole. I had the skills to ski down, I didn't have self-confidence in those skills while my daughter was flying down the slope yelling back at me "come on mom". I got down in one piece

The other time was when my mom was dying of cancer & I was staying with her & caught the home care person abusing her. Police involved, she had connections with my mom's boyfriend & I had no idea what she might do until I got her out of the house. That was a traumatic experience. Guess everything else has been relative to those experiences