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I am sorry that you switched in school today. That can be so hard. I am glad that you knew it was happening and what was going on. I am sorry the migraine came with it. That is so rough. Maybe parts of you feel they are ready to be heard. Can you talk to your t about it? BB

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ty. was at lunch when that happened with k and 2nd. then the older kids came pouring in at the height of it.

i came close to telling t last wed. but was met with silence - coulng't get the wrods out. t said she ndersthood and that was the ptsd keeping me from talking... i saw the words in my head and felt the switch ready to happen if i spoke them. but i couldn't ... felt like i'd be hurting t with the posin that is in me. like no one can hear those things cuz it woudl hurt them too much to hear. or they would loke at me with pity which i don't want or they'd feel sorry for me and that would be worse. guess i gotta try - won't have any pease unless i get the posin out, will i? getting mini flashbak peices every day now. things i already know about - things i arealdy hda the major flashes of several years aog. but they keep coming up. guess they will till i get them out all the way. *curls up under covers at foot of bed*