Ever since I was little, I've had object constancy issues. I had transitional objects even from my parents! And I'd get home sick really quickly as a child. I could never do sleepovers. Even now as an adult, I can only spend one night away from home before I have an anxiety attack. I'm not really attached to my family. But I'm very attached to H and L.

I don't really have anyone else in my life. There's T. I feel extremely disconnected from T because it's been almost a year since I've seen her. I have very little memories of her even though I worked with her for 4 years before she went on maternity leave. I feel sad about that because I know I was attached to her. I know we had a great relationship. But it's like I've forgotten her.