I think the fact that I had been going through an incredibly rough time, beginning with getting laid off from my job, and ending with being bullied in my new job, led to my feeling I needed him in my life. I leaned on him and he was there to catch me and help me. And I helped him, too.

Right now, I just feel so weakened by all the trauma I've been through lately. Being hospitalized for the voices I hear was traumatizing for me. The voices I heard were saying the most horrific things, and I was petrified for my life and for others' lives. I was scared I would end up hurting someone, given what they were saying to me. Being bullied in my new job was also traumatic for me.

I am recovering from these things as we speak and am trying to regain my own sense of self and personal strength.

Perhaps when I can "come to" and feel like myself again, I will have a different take again on my marriage and husband. RIght now though, I am grateful for his help. When the voices have taken over, he's been there to help me to keep fighting. He has also prayed over me and he was present when a priest came to my house to perform an exorcism on me.

He understands what I go through spiritually and with these voices... he's been very sympathetic over it and most supportive.

For now, I am not making any decisions either way. I need my strength back first, and I need to heal myself and get healthy again.