You know what I've been thinking about a lot today? When you said not long ago that I make it very difficult for people to be in relationship with me. You're right, of course, I get that, I'm just always so afraid of how other people are going to react or what they're going to think about me that they're going to hate me or whatever that I hide hide hide. And that's how you are interpreting my "I don't knows" isn't it? By sticking that on the end of almost everything I say, it's like I'm afraid to just let mySelf be out there. I have to put a condition on it. Which puts doubt in people's minds "well is that what she really thinks or not? who is she?" I'm sorry I do that to you. I have been working really hard lately not to say "I don't know."

I changed my mind. I am totally looking forward to seeing you tomorrow. I have much to share.