I have had a trip to visit one of my best friends planned for a while now. I am leaving in a day, but my depression and anxiety are causing me to dread going on the trip so much that now I am unsure if I am even excited to go... then this spirals into me getting angry with myself and feeling guilty for ruining something so fun for no good reason. And of course I am constantly overthinking every possible thing that could go wrong while traveling or just whole being generally away from home with new people! It also makes me have an overwhelming feeling of sadness when I begin to think about how past me would be thrilled to be going on this trip and wouldn’t even give a second thought to possibly having a hard/bad time... but now my life has somehow become me laying awake at night crying about how nervous I am to go on this trip because of how my mental health is bogging me down.
I don’t know what to do to get back to the feeling of genuinely looking forward to something without dreading the possibility of my mental health ruining it for me.
Any advice? Or similar past experiences?

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