Hello & Welcome, Achung3.

I would hope for you that you find some way of completing the planned visit. Over time, depression strangled my life such that I long ago became socially isolated. May that not happen to you.

With that, I personally would not try to deny the reality of all your feelings and emotions. Employ whatever safe means and methods you have to minimize to stresses of travel and interacting with new people.

Does your friend have an idea of your situation? (Feel free to ignore the question.)

Wishing you the best whatever you do or don't do.