So Sorry that this is happening. i partly agree with the other wise and wonderful posters about trying not to feel too guilty about this. i think some people simply do their best to try and be compassionate so i'd suggest to simply analyze yourself if you feel like you aren't enough. Just keep striving to be your best self at least in my opinion. Please do not give up. Sending many Safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @poshgirl, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!