How do you not blame yourself for someone who cheated on you? Even if this person was abusive and narcissistic? It hurts when they think the grass is greener elsewhere after they’ve picked petty arguments with you. Pick fights and feel it’s justified of what they make you out to be in their heads in that you are a piece of crap because you didn’t help them pay $1500 in back child support to prevent a license suspension? Never married this person and I have my own bills and if I’d asked him for this type of money and given him less than a week he probably would have blocked me or something. Just wish i could stop turning all this petty crap inward instead of toward him where the problem is. Even at the end of this relationship i still feel ******.