I'm at a point where I'm good while on them so I start thinking about the negatives of what they're doing and if they're worth it. I might have not been on any if I wasn't so horrifically suicidal and knew nothing about mental health and coping mechanisms.. idk

But I feel calm on these meds.. Antipsychotic is antagonizing serotonin receptors and the stimulant increases dopamine.. I'd have to become a neuroscientist or psychiatrist to make a valid decision so I'll just trust my psychiatrist - He's good and listens to me.

I'll stay on these doses for a while and then ask my psychiatrist if it's ok to change - And why I want them changed.

For you, hang in there ^-; You take your meds as well - They're not poison.. They can just have side effects. It's not about being off or on meds - But the right meds, as little as possible and accepting that we have issues =/