I know your just moving, and we are still going to do virtual. I can't bare to tell you just how this is affecting me. I know I broke down towards the end of session, and that emails are being written with no need. Its just that what the office offered is someting virtual cant, and I can't get myself to say it. Parts of me are absolutely devasted; while others are just shutdown. Maybe some dont even care. I know that your moving has been weighting heavy on my mind, and with it all the regrets I have for not allowing myself to try again in asking you for a simple hug, but you damn hurt me when I asked, and you said, No, unless your sure that all parts of mind are aware, and can and will let go. I know and made it very apparent after that I would NEVER ask you again No matter how much I wanted one. It was not going to happen. And now I damn regret it, not asking and trying to work on it. I would like to ask you for a hug good bye. I can't. I hate that I know where you live. I hate that I have been the most open with you vs any other therapist. I hate that I care and feel so attached. I am not sure if I want to talk about this anymore. In a way I feel as though I went through it in Jan and it was unbareable . I wish that the one thing virtual did for me at one point would come back and make all this that much easier.