I feel like more than one person at the moment. Part of me is extremely dissociated right now. Part of me is very much here & observing, as an outsider. I'm constantly analizing. My voices keep changing the way they are. Sometimes they're nice to me & we enjoy music & conversation & maybe a tv program once in a while. Then suddenly things become painful & cruel. At this moment, as I am writing this, I'm feeling very sad. I know I'll feel better later, so I hold on, & I believe in the light at the end of the tunnel. So I'm saying to myself, I'm ok, or I will be later.