I run the risk of letting everyone know I'm crazy...I'm too caught up in my own little ball of lies to let the string get pulled, if you know what I mean. I know I should seek help....but I can't go to the place on campus. There was an incident in my room last semester where my buddy's roommate tried to kill himself by OD'ing on sleeping pills and rum. He ended up throwing up all night in my room, while we went outside and smoked a whole pack of cigs each. Plus I couldn't handle the embarassment I'd feel if my friends new where I was....It's bad enough we had to speak with a psych about why we tried to help him...

I was totally traumatized by the experience, but I wasn't going to admit it and then spill the beans about everything else....god I'm such waste.

Either way in a year it won't matter....