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Originally Posted by AgentQ9A
With my first promotion into management, I lasted just over a year before asking to be returned to contributor. Much to my managers disappointment, because she thought I was doing a great job. Five years later I was promoted again to an even higher management level because I was the obvious choice and they needed me to move up in the org. Great reviews, talk of a Directorship, connections with influential executives, but after a year I quit, also to the disappointment of a lot of people. Self doubt and impostor syndrome took away from me a bright future. Now I struggle with even thinking the local grocery store would hire me.
If you are not, please get some help. Don't let your negative voice keep you from a better life.
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It sounds like that stressful corporate environment was toxic to your spirit. It wasn't your true calling. You have to figure out what your true calling is. Is it the corporate world? Art? Music? Astronomy? Medical? Science? Education?
If you could do whatever you wanted for a career today, what would that look like? Write it down. Every single detail. Then, create a road map for yourself to achieve it. That's what I'm *finally* doing. Only took me 50 years. But at least I'm working on that path now.
The Fleetwood song "Gypsy" came on my iTunes today. It's a song about nostalgia. About the emotional significance of one's youth. And, remembering who you WERE before adulthood and societal norms took over and nearly destroyed that childhood innocence and creativity and drive and imagination and spirit. At it's core, "Gypsy" is a song about self-liberation. Don't give up on yourself before it's too late (old age -- life in a memory care room). Pursue your dreams NOW.
Don't forget who you really are. Shine. Be your true self now. If that toxic corporate job and that environment burnt you out it's because it wasn't the right path for you. So now you have the chance to figure out what your real true path is and figure out how to achieve it.
I cried when I heard this song b/c at 10 years old, I went as a "Gypsy" for Halloween b/c I have so many interests and different abilities that I never hunkered down to pursue individually. But now at 50 I have chosen my path. Doesn't matter if I achieve my goal. At least I'm on my path and it's the journey that matters. It always was about the journey.