I hope I didn't come off as a self-righteous AA member. Those types really get under my skin! I follow a rule that states, "Take what you need, & leave the rest." There are many things & many people in AA that aren't to my liking; AA been helpful in my case, though. I don't pretend that AA is the answer for everyone...because it's not. There are different groups:

AA Alternatives: 25 Sober Communities Beyond Alcoholics Anonymous

There are other methods of stopping, too (a drug called Antabuse) which might help you get over the hump if you think you need help. I'd start by discussing things with your therapist or pdoc to figure out what might work for you. Hell! Some people are even able to quit on their own! Whatever happens, I want you to stay safe, bizi. Good thoughts sent your way...