Leomama, you have made such great strides these past few years, and I remember your ex-fiancee, and forgive my bluntness, he was not good for you. You are a bright, still young woman. If you are unhappy with the man you've been with, wouldn't it be better to be single and look for someone who doesn't have all those deal breakers than go back to a guy who hurt you so many times? There is no evidence that he is going to behave any differently. He has shown you what kind of partner he is. So just be prepared, if you go back with him, to deal with the same hurts and injuries.