Hey no worries at all @AgentQ9A and my apologies too @indigo1015 for my going a little off topic (I hope that the discussion will have some relevance for you, on the subject of self doubt and negative self talk).

Honestly I do share some of these thoughts and doubts too. It can be difficult to know what draws us to a particular path, sometimes we do need to take stock, to regroup and that's okay.