You're not a PITA, SK. You're a human being who is struggling. Besides, you have grown since you saw her. It is her loss in not wanting to see this.. It seems she is the one who has limited resources (physical, emotional, cognitive timewise??) to see clients.

I am kinda angry at your old T for making you feel this way & also sorry that you are not having the support you need, right now. That sucks (((SK)))

Please look for / interview other Ts? And take good care of yourself.