This is why I stick to myself and very hesitant to let people into my life bc I'm continuously let down. It's why I don't get attached to people bc it never fails to be let down. As far as making better choices...I don't even make them. People somehow find their way into my bubble and sometimes I end up letting them in. And I guess its bc I'm so tired of being alone.

I've never been good with making and keeping friends. Something must legit be wrong with me. I know you guys are being nice, but I just don't see it. This goes back to elementary and middle school. This is why I will die alone. I used to be ok with that, but sometimes when I actually realize it, it hurts.