Hello, from what I have been told by my therapist suicide is part of the bipolar. The example she gave was either one day or one week a person would be on top of the world then the next they would be suicidal.
Does the doctor know your taking 3 ativan a day? I believe that has the same side effects of xanax and that could be a problem also. Also let him know if you are taking any herbals along with the prescription meds. Its very important for you to do so. I haven't been on long or reading much so if I cover something that is already covered forgive me. Be sure to ask him questions lots and lots of questions. Did you have a psych evaluation done to be sure the bipolar is what you have. Use the tests here to print up and take to the therapist. I say therapist because a doctor will try and heal what you say is wrong and maybe something more that only a therapist can understand. I think you may need a med change again, but it is just my opinion I am not a doctor. Ask doctor about paxil or something more for anxiety?
Good luck
Peg