I started to text you 3 different times today but didn't send any of them. (I'm pretty sure you can only see somebody is typing if you're actively in a texting thread already, and since we're not, hopefully you didn't see!) and then after i got triggered by something my sister texted i turned off my phone and just left it off that way i'm safe from texting you, too. I'm tired of feeling so broken. I know that the past year + has been difficult for everyone, I know I'm not special in that regard, so I just need to ****ing buck up already, close myself off, and stop being so damn needy already.