I am really scared of the appointment... I feel fine like I don't need help... I just don't know what to talk about really...

But that is the mentality that caused me so many problems I guess. I am so confused. I come close to an answer and suddenly it just moves even further away from where it came from.

When something is not present 24/7 I always feel cured but then I make the painful discovery over and over again that I am not.

So yeah I am utterly confused and nobody seems to get me in real life... I mean I often don't get myself either you know.
Just nothing consistent.