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ReveuseTroublee
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Member Since: Jan 2021
Location: France
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Default Apr 08, 2021 at 03:37 AM
 
I love feeling faint and weak. I am such a failure and I need to punish myself. I hate it to feel physically strong. I always get told how strong I am mentally, I mean interesting I don't feel like it. I am so bad at coping... Anyways I feel ****** physically but I mean I know why that is... It is all my fault All my fault I am struggling. It is my fault I have mental health issues. Nobody hurt me that bad, I am just a self-harmer so I need to harm myself all the time. This is just a subtle way...
I feel so dissociated too and I like it sometimes I have to admit. I hate my life because I can never live the way I want to. My anxiety got so bad it literally confines me at home. I try to break out but it is always hard - and even before my avoidance it was bad. I exposed myself everyday yet nothing helped. I feel condemned to live like this forever.
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