It is by far one of the most difficult things I have ever dealt with. I have my good days and my good nights, then the bad ones. I have seen myself getting stronger, it does take time, there will always be scars, just don't those scars bleed on others. There are times I want to blame myself and feel like I should but that will do no good. Thanks, I really do appreciate it. I am trying my best, and a shout out to all the single parents out there, it is not an easy task. Yeah the situation my kids are in really upsets me, but I do not want them to see me like that. I am not bashing their mother one bit through this at all either. I think I will be okay one day. Surround yourself with good positive people and don't be afraid to express your emotions while going through this and keep your head up.