I hope this is the right forum to post this in. I have been dealing w/ multiple health, chronic pain and mobility issues for years. Last month, I was in hospital for just under two weeks due to shortness of breath. At first they thought I had a pulmonary embolism (blood clot in the lungs), but that was ruled out after testing. A doctor on my team looked through my old records and here, they can see everything from both of the two hospitals in the city. She looked at my last echocardiogram from three years ago and saw evidence of pulmonary hypertension, which nobody told me about at the time. I have to have another echo but do not have a date yet. I saw my GP yesterday and she said it's pretty certain, though.

I am in a really dark place right now. I think it's been happening for a while, but is just so much worse now. I can't get enthused about anything or do anything. Due to forum rules, I can't say much else. My dr has referred me to some program (which I don't want) but it will take six months to see anyone.

I do not have any family left and all my close friends are deceased, too. I don't get close to anyone anymore, it is not worth it.