i am So Sorry for what you're going through and So Sorry for your Losses! So Sorry this is happening and So Sorry you're alone! Wish i could say or do more to Help. Whatever happens, i Hope you'll manage alright. i am here if you need to talk, even through pm if needed. i Hope others will be available too if you ask them. Please do not give up. Sending many Safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @LuvsHorses, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!