Well, another session wasted with....the same stuff from last time. I know your moving and its not changing our virtual sessions, and yet it changes what I was doing to help me get to the end of this to where we could see each other again. that is not happening, so after a mediation that i listened to and found tears in my eyes, I was able to realize what Virtual vs Office sessions means. Its a loss of a ritual of things, heating water to make tea, or using the coffee maker, feeling safe and secure once I crossed the door frame, seeing how beautiful you are and your sense of style, your hair down and looking radiant, seeing your smile. smelling the aromatherapy in the waiting area, having the 2nd office as my own to nap in after a dissociated state, and other things such as this. Now what Virtual means is looking at you, or staring out my window, having no real contact, wondering if your WITH me as I am crying, I sense lately, we are not in this, but just the motions of it, The more I let myself think about YOUR MOVING, I am starting to feel anger towards you. I do feel it was not as sudden as you say, but rather very calculated and planned but you put off telling me. Doesnt matter anyway. its done and over, One thing I will never say to you is your home is lovely, I love that backyard and would love to have something like it. For now like I said I am disconnecting from you, and not emailing unless I really need to. I guess I will work on my own Object permanence, as I drive by your home to see if your still there occassionally like I have many times before. No email doesnt mean your not there, just means your not responding to me. When you move I will have to trust your still there. Never could I say this to you, I love you. and miss you dearly.