@CANDC

Hi there,
Thanks for your thoughtful response and articles. I know a marriage is a two-way street where both parties contribute to the family dynamic and grow and develop together the relationship. I know, intellectually, it's not all my fault, but I guess I just realize how much of it I really contributed in the recent days. No one wants to deal with someone with serious, chronic mental health issues, and he stopped loving me. I am not saying I think that's OK or even that I understand it -- I couldn't stop loving him, regardless of the situation. Things are better off this way, he is happy, and I am at least not dragging anyone down the chaos tunnel with me. I don't have much hope of it ever getting to a point that I'll open up again, at least not fully to another -- but I know things do get better with time.

Anyway, I'm not trying to debate the cause here-- I really am just wanting to say thanks for reaching out. It means a lot, especially when you feel isolated and alone to just hear someone other than yourself speak.