My anxiety is so bad. I was a mess again with my meds last night. This time because I was S. Then I kept waking up all night to drink water. My anxiety is the worst right now and my stomach hurts. I just took 4mil of Xanax and a Pepcid to try to get it under control.

My mom won’t help. She won’t take control of my meds even if I ask her. The cough syrup and melatonin are in plain reach for me. My doctors want her to be in control of them. This is just like when I was a kid when she wouldn’t get me to a therapist until things got real bad when I was a teenager.