Random person 1: Was just wondering how acid reacts with antidepressants?

Me: Someone on a vc once said that I need something to live/die for and told me to make up my mind before he came back from the washroom

Helping person: afaik its bad to take them while on antidepressants

Random person 2: Acid is an antidepressant imo

Helping person: and taking benzos to kill a trip rlly makes my brain feel weird and kind of psychotic

Me: Better add seroquel then! Olanzepine..

Helping person: seroquel makes me feel like i got hit in the head with a rock lmao

Helping person: Quote: “Someone on a vc once said that I need something to live/die for and told me to make up my mind after he came back from the washroom” - having a life purpose is really important for your happiness

Me: But I can't make up my mind! I need to explorree multiple interests (About 50-100 of them) before I decide =[ Why don't people give me timmeee

Helping person: u have a lot of time to plan 1 thing that you're going to follow for the rest of your life - help humanity in some form - have to commit to it tho

Me: yes.. The person said I would end up a serial killer if i don't which is falsssee

Helping person: what the ****? - xD - no you'll probably just become hopeless about life because u dont have a path - idk about serial killers - whats in their minds - I can just assume - probably really unconcious - numbed by sadness -
maybe being morbid & feeling doing wrong things stimulates their brain a lot - and thats why - idek

Me: I need to make my brain more neuroplastic and not fall apart - Cuz I used to just sleep on antipsychotics =/ Now with the psychedelic, it has opened my mind to everything... I learn about everything now .. I was a failed gifted kid, everything... The abuse and neglect was too much idk

Helping person: I relate to you

Me: I do want to change the world in a way... But the people posting "wash your hands" and "wear a mask" on facebook.. Idk about that propaganda machine

Helping person: what do you mean - washing hands and wearing mask does help w not spreading the virus - & infecting urself

Random person 3: U not making sense - Are u anti safety ???

Me: .. There's things where.. for the longest time, I had zero spirituality.. I was very good at math.. And that's all I was good at + languages and liked science.. But no one philosophized with me growing up. I was just told to vacuum the carpet over and over again if I missed any spots, swept floors and sanded trailers - No one told me to develop as a person.. Just to self-discipline through mindless tasks.. And now, people think they can change the world and manifest through anything - When if I were to meet a person in the past, it was just a coincidence.. OOooh a coincidence - That means that I wasn't meant to talk to them... In the isolated place, meaningless sensory deprivation and insanity of giving into the pain and walking the highway looking at passing semi's go by

Me: I'm not anti-safety! It was an example of posts i see on FB - Note to self: Use examples in more variety


Helping person: but somehow you've become self-aware of it and got out of the loop - so now you can grow as person - and learn things on your own - isnt that nice? - you woke up

Me: Yes.. But I regret.. So much regret and time gone.. Now I must accept and carry on - Maybe try to make up for it

Helping person: how old are you?

Me: 24

Helping person: ur so fuking young wtf - Xd - ur not 40 - u have so much time - and still you're in your prime physical form rn - just have to gather yourself and do stuff

Me: Yeah I suppose.. I just get flashbacks of not defending myself

Helping person: you need awareness though

Me: more awareness??

Helping person: more


Me: Oh Jesssus - No but I know..