Welcome! So Sorry that things are being difficult! i agree with the other wise and wonderful posters about being So Sorry that you're hurting in general. Are you currently seeing a therapist? Have you tried to suggest Couple counseling to her? Feel free to check out the Relationships and Communication forums for more advice about this. Contact the admins and moderators in case you need assistance. i am also available if you need it and Hopefully many others as well. Sending many safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @JMIRAGLIA, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!