@captaineo...I'm sorry you're going through such a troubled time. Not being able to see your children must be very painful. I noted that you live in Tokyo & that your mother & sister are in Venezuela. Being half a world away from your family must be extremely difficult...especially given the difficult economic & political circumstances faced by Venezuelans these days. Take care of your physical & emotional health as best you can, since your children & family need you. Keep posting here.

My mood is for shite. I don't know what's going on, but it's getting tiresome. Yesterday my partner & I drove around looking at subdivisions where we might be able to find a new house (not that I want to move). My anxiety & irritability were through the roof. The thought of change made me even more anxious than I was to begin with. I only lasted an hour, but managed to keep my irritability in its cage. I told my partner I wanted to go home because I had to take a leak...which was a lie. I hesitate to take Klonopin during the day since it makes me tired. I also hesitate to go back on my other meds (AP or AD). Other than my mood stablilizer, I've been pretty self-sufficient lately. There's a big part of me that feels I should be able to ride this out on my own. It's getting pretty uncomfortable, though...