I know exactly what you're going through. I've been through it more times than I care to remember. It hurts, it REALLY HURTS!!! But might as we may we can't make anybody love us or even like us for that matter. For me, it was always my BP with the rapid cycling that got in between the relationships. Nobody could keep up with it and my lows would get so low, they just didn't know how to deal with it nor did they want to. And with my continual mood swings, which could be several times a day, my postings would often times get extremely erratic.

Even though it really hurt and I cried buckets of tears and would also unfortunately unload my feelings of grief on others, I did stop communicating with the person. That was REALLY hard. I'm still not over losing what I considered to be my best friend last summer. I recently cleared out my address book of all the people who want nothing to do with me anymore but hers is still there. I just couldn't bring myself to delete it. I guess I'm not ready to. BUT even with that said, if she decided to e-mail me again at this point, I would not reply. I don't want or need people in my life that keep running away from me and neither should you. Believe me, I KNOW how hard it is but you have to find a way to be strong and let it go. Stop e-mailing, posting, PMing and IMing the person. You really don't want to win somebody back who really doesn't want to be back with you. Find the strength to refrain from any contact. Yes, it hurts like HELL!!! I sure can sympathize with you but for your own sake, you need to break away. It may still hurt for quite a long time, I still hurt and it's about 8 months since my best friend left me. But it doesn't do either one of us any good to continue to hang on to a relationship that has ended, regardless of our hurt feelings. I'm soooooo sorry that you're going through this. If you want to talk with me some more, feel free to do so, either here on the board or you can PM me if you'd rather do it that way. I know how much your heart is breaking right now. I wish I could make it all better but I can't, I haven't even completely healed from my own but I can be here for you if you want to talk with me. (((((((((jagster))))))))))