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Originally Posted by ArtieTheSequal
Hugs, QM. I so relate to this that I bolded.  I'm pretty sure that's a big part of why I'm so stuck on the whole possibility that L thinks I'm stalking her because of the psychtoday profile thing I've been on about. I'm afraid she thinks I'm overly dependent, far too needy, etc etc and feel ashamed that I do rely on her/therapy and also feel a lot of shame that I haven't "got myself figured out yet" at going on 59. Shame at feeling so broken this late in life. That I can't just magically be some better version of myself. Like I'm doing life wrong. |
Hugs. I'm like that too even though I try to act like I'm independent in therapy. I'm younger than you and feel the shame although I'd never judge anyone else. For example I feel you're courageous and really don't see you as "broken" though I get why you'd feel you are. I feel like we're all trying to figure out ourselves, and I definitely feel this whole "I'm doing life wrong".