I'm glad you got a COVID vaccine shot. I'm also glad you have others in your life who care about pushing you to do important things. This clinic has an association in your mind that arouses your grief. I'm sorry it is still that hard for you to go to this place. Your grandma must have been a special person for you to grieve so for her.

I always say that grief honors the person who is grieved for. There are grandmas who nobody grieves over, when they depart. That is really sad. I hope your pain lessens.