I hate myself most of the time. Usually I run to my family or friends and they will tell me that they love me and I start loving myself after that. I mean it’s nice but I’m done relying on others to feel good about myself. I’m trying to be my own best friend now. I haven’t talked to my bestie for a week and I miss her, but I need to learn how to validate myself instead of getting a validation from others. I’ve been trying to enjoy my body without any distraction too. Twice a day I will lie down for 30 minutes just focusing on my physical sensation, processing my feelings and thoughts and try to be calm when doing it. No music. No painting. No yoga. Just me.