I wish I could go on holiday from all this too. I have no idea what to do anymore. I feel so disgusting and I can tell that M doesn't feel good either, but nothing I do helps at all. My eyes are burning. I dreamed that a huge shadowy ghost ship was coming after me last night, and then I was matching up patient details for Broadmoor hospital.

I will understand if you just want to forget about me for a few weeks. I am a nightmare.