Dear Jimbo2802,
I am so very, very sorry you are suffering. People who never go through such things can never ever really understand how awful and devastating these things are. After a separation I developed clinical depression which became so severe that I had to be hospitalized. Luckily I was given medical treatment that helped me bounce back from the terrible pain I suffered. Separation can be the most painful thing a human being can go through in my opinion and my heart goes out to you. Wish I knew what to say to ease your pain and grief and distress! Hopefully others here will have better words for you than my poor words!
Sincerely yours, Yao Wen