You know, it doesn't probably feel like so much Angel, but just by becoming so conversant in your moods, you are demonstrating a power over them, or put another way, a seperateness from them. I suppose i'm overly fond of abstraction, and don't mean to compound the tediousness of my verbosity with obtuseness, but the voice that is able to evaluate each state has been a huge key for me in my search for "me." You are stronger than you feel; that is easy to see from outside of you. I'm so glad you keep posting thru your mood swings. Keep on. We're all connected.