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Originally Posted by Theforgeagency
Hi, I definitely need to check in with someone. So Im trying to quit cannabis while bipolar and it is...scary, like really really scary. Yesterday i made it until 5 pm but my body and brain were just spinning out and attacking me. I did like six loan and credit applications in a manic frenzy. Some bad terms and I just went for it. I spent hours on it. I was just a wreck and I felt it physically in a way I never had before. Cannabis really tamps down all my impulses and anger and all the stuff that makes bipolar scary. I just didnt expect that it would prevent me from making even one sober day. Any advice would be so appreciated.
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I noticed this is your first post, @
Theforgeagency. Welcome!
I'm just writing from my own experience, but when I was using non-prescription substances, it was pretty difficult for me to distinguish between the forest & the trees. Comorbidities (especially mental health diagnoses paired with substance abuse disorders) are fairly common. I was very impulsive when using marijuana & alcohol. Once I eliminated those from my life, however, it became possible for me to distinguish between impulsivity related to my bipolar disorder (which can be regulated much of the time), & impulsivity related to my substance abuse disorders (which I now have 100% under control -- one day at a time). I think my psych meds worked a heck of a lot more efficiently when I stopped self-medicating, too.
To be honest, I just did one heck of a lot of stupid shite when I was drinking & drugging. In my case, I quite often lost any healthy inhibitions that might have been knocking around in my head. You're the only one who can judge if that glove fits you. I'm not diagnosing you when I mention substance abuse disorder, but it's often a troubling sign if a substance is telling a person when to use, rather than a person being in control of a substance. If you are in therapy or seeing a psychiatrist, I'd definitely raise the issue with them. They might be able to support you in quitting, or guide you to support groups, if that's something you might find helpful. Recovery can be a long road, but it can be achieved! Good luck, & keep us posted!