So Sorry this is happening! i agree with the other wise and wonderful posters in being So Sorry that you're both going through this. i Hope things will improve with your friend but in the meantime giving yourself a break is not that bad i suppose. Please do not give up. Hope things will improve for both and everyone. Sending many Safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @cookiepie234, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!